feed yourself

When something is wrong in your body or When you have pain,
You feel it straight away. You know something need to be done.

I understood that I need medicine, or some treatments, because of my ankle.
I knew, I cannot walk normal, and I need help.

I had to call few times, and nurse looked my foot, then doctor,
and they just said, pain is going to go away, just wait.
I knew, I have had this before, and I knew I need something more,
not just ' go and wait '
So I didnt give up and I got appointment for the same day.
Now I know, that my muscles of my ankle are very weak,
and that I need to do exercises to be able to walk normal again.
it will take one year, that my foot has same power than my other one.
but luckily in couple weeks I can walk without pain, if I do my exercises.

Its easy to notice, when for example there is pain in foot. or head, or arm..
If you have wound, you know you need bandage. If you have head ache, you might take painkillers. If you cannot see well, you might need glasses.

We take care of our bodies, we see need of our body parts, and we want to feed the need. We eat when we are hungry, we sleep when we are tired etc.

But what happens when our 'spiritual body' is in need. How easily we can tell that we have wounds or that we cannot breath well?
If we dont have connection with God, we sufficate, If we dont feed ourself with word of God, we will die. But because our physical body is still alive, we might not see the spiritual one is drying and needs help.
Thinking from the view of eternity, our physical body has so small part of this road, still that is the one, which steals our most attention. We want our body to feel ok.

Im speaking about myself too, of course.
Im not saint, or any better than anyone else. My physical needs is always first.
But after I've feed my body, and take care of it, do I have time to God?
If Im satisfied after lunch, going toilet, drinking water, and going out for walk,
Is there any needs to be filled?

Yes there is.
I know, I have once choosed to believe Jesus.
I have choose the way of faith,
and its not just about having good feelings.
I made decision, to take my days with Jesus,
even I dont feel I need him,
I dont need I need bible.
But I KNOW I need.

Now,
when I have been kinda tired,
and lonely etc. I have needed God more.
But I know, I need him also then,
when Im having fun,
when I have lots of friends
maybe when Im healthy and life is shining.
i still need him.

I want to learn to take care of my spiritual body.
not of course forgetting my physical one.
But understand, that power to be able to really live,
comes from inside.
comes from the love, that God is giving to my soul.