maanantai 29. huhtikuuta 2013

Just chilling with God ^^

Ooooohhh, was a great MONDAY !
Had one meeting afternoon, then just did laundry and some cleaning... well not enough cause this place is a mess... ;D

oh!! and I called to VLADIVOSTOK !!! <3 to my dts leader... Im planning to go to her wedding to Switzerland... <3 (autumn)
soooooo great... i saw her IRL last time....  27.2.2011 !

Thennn.... had two different music practise from 18-20 maybe? well, of course we stayed longer, andd played christian metal music !!! YAY  HB- It is time etc... I LOVE !
and then we left at 22... and now im exhausted.....

God is sooo good <3 and im glad i have great believer friends <3




Listen --->   HB - it is time

sunnuntai 28. huhtikuuta 2013

Church - Home


Most important in church is relationships, and that we are loving each others with the Love of God

We cannot love each others, if we dont know the one, whom Love is from.
That why we need to look ourselves to the mirror, and ask "what are the priorities in our lives"

Now a days
People has forgotten the values, true values in life.
Family, marriage, commitment.... they have no value for many in this world.
This time is different, and people is putting their trust more and more in dead objects and things,
and have forgotten the value of human being

Material things has become the reason of happiness,
We are searching our meaning in our lives from money, work, hobbies...
new cellphones, computers, iphones, ipads, ipods...
New clothes new this and that..
Those dead things has replace the power of relationships, power of love,
where the true happiness could come from.

And then people are miserable, and they feel empty.
Material things cannot fill our needs, even thou we try that.

And still, people are feeling alone.
OF COURSE THEY ARE.
when ever could things replace a person?
Never, but still we are doing that.

But why it is so hard to keep relationships?

I think this time also makes people lazy (at least in western countries)
And also impatient.

Everything what we wanna have is in our hands in just seconds.
Info from internet, couple clicks and googlings and then you got answer for your question,
If you need to catch your friends, just go facebook, and right away that person is there, and you can chat

If you need to buy something, you can just order it from internet, or go to store,
and if you are lucky and live in a city, where is 24/7 stores, you dont even have to wait to the morning.

Everything what you need is there of you and you dont have to wait...

so maybe that is one reason, we have so much problems with keeping relationships,
cause IT TAKES TIME

If bike brokes, laptop has some problems, or you lose your phone...
you can get a new one, you can go and fix it very quickly...

But how about a relationship?
If you have problem, or if you lose that , or if relationship brokes...
you cannot go to the store to get new one...
or do you?
do you quit of trying to fix the problems, and then find new people around you...?
Or do you try to find solution?

And are you ready for that it is not the same than with your bike, or phone...
Its not just fixing some little thing there, and then its brand new...
It takes time
patient
Love
and are you ready to change YOURSELF also?
If bike is broke you fix bike, but if your leg is broken,
and you cannot cycle... are you still going to fix the bike?
not you?

Okay, lets think our own church...
whatever church it is.

You will live with those people, with all their faults, and imperfectness...
Are you ready to be humble and bless those who have hurt you?
Ready to forgive...
Ready to even thank God for those people who have come to your life,
hurt you and then.... you have had chance to change and learn new things in yourself...

Church is the place where you and me can grow.
Church is home.

One day





I have been thinking of what is important in my life, and what I could give away for someone.

I mean, If someday I will have boyfriend/ husband, I know, there is two persons, who have  their own dreams, and both have been thinking of future separately before they met each others...

What Im willing to give away, and what is something I could not?
And what is my ultimate one dream?

Is it that I have family, and that I will have a husband  who I can love, and who loves me back,
And that we will together serve God...
Or is my ultimate one dream to do the things what I have dreamed of? (for example missionfield, outreach, serving God in abroad, in Russia, being missionary?)
And can those be combined together? or not? and should it be combined?

I pray that when ever I will get married, Im willing to then put my husband d family to the first place (after God of course)
because when Im married, my first priority ministry place is my family !

I also pray, that I wouldnt be thinking of that I will miss something in my life, if I have to leave some dreams behind... Because Gods plan is always the best, and he never stops to give blessings to my life.

And I wanto understand that where ever  I am, there I can serve God.
Not try to seek something huge and "fancy" because THEN God could use me...
understand that the place Im right now. work, hobbies, church, relationships... THERE I can do Gods will!

"okay then when I'm missionary in some darkest African forest, then I'm in Gods plan"

NO! Im in Gods plan RIGHT NOW !

And who will be beside me?
I dont know...

I just know that my desire is to have husband, who will put God to first place,
And is willing to give away dreams, like I am willing... and then seek TOGETHER
what is Gods plan for us...
And that I could be a wife, who can support husband, and honour him.
And that I could be loved by him.


Im Glad thou, i dont have to put my happines to that dream, or desire.
I wanna have my happines and  REASON to live IN GOD
And then.... when time and person is right....
I can share this  life with a person,
who is ment for me.

One day I'm yours, and you are mine <3





Fasting and giving time for God

Whats there for me?
Where should I be?
Whats there for me, o Lord? 


Taking time off from fb, and other things i normally use daily
and giving that time to God has make impact to me already.

I have been able to focus on God more , and I have felt better physically and spiritually and mentally.

First day off from fb was friday, and then i also fasted 12-16, and seeked God , read bible and gave time for him.
I started the time writing down questions and thoughts, that i would like to know and understand in me, and God, and in other people.

I was so blessed all friday, and I had a great time after that also... we had music practise in evening, and we worshipped and danced together.... many hours, and prayed for our city.

God was closer, and that is what i want from my life.
That I could be closer to God, and then understand more of his heart and his will...

Friday I got some answers already to my questions...
will I get those more, or confirmation for those answers?

I dont know, but I will trust God, he will lead me there where I should go...
And the right people will stay in my life, when we seak Gods will together.

Friday- saturday 26-27. 4.2013

-HJ-

keskiviikko 24. huhtikuuta 2013

Choices choices....

This life situation will show do I have patience...
Or maybe this will grow it ... well i hope it will.




Im going to take time off from social media, and as much as possible from Internet...
And this time for real :D
Normally its just fails after one or two days :p

I need time WITH GOD
for seeking his will, and also understand my own...
thoughts about my life and what I really want from future...


Life is complicated sometimes

"Why, where, when.... with whom, without whom, what for, to whom for...."

More questions than answers,
But only thing I can do is trust.... trust God, who knows everything.
And relay on him, and ....
Wait.

 My soul, wait in silence for God alone, For my expectation is from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress. I will not be shaken. With God is my salvation and my honor. The rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God. Trust in him at all times, you people. Pour out your heart before him. God is a refuge for us. 
psalm 62.5-8


keskiviikko 17. huhtikuuta 2013

What makes me ALIVE?

What makes me breath?
What makes me take another step?
What makes me ALIVE?
 The spirit that comes Above,
The spirit that fills my soul with Joy and peace
and wiith many millions of dreams! 
The spirit of the Lord God Almighty 
-Heidi

I have been thinking of future, and decisions....

Well now I cannot choose anything I have already applied to places and prayed a lot, maybe not enough...
Cause I feel so impatient and restless...

In this moment I have multiple ways to go, and well... later on will know if I really have to choose between those... then I will need so much... wisdom? or something to know which way to go...

But now Im not making choices so is the time of WAITING...
Thats sometimes the hardest part :P





Im lucky..

 that  in this moment Im happy in many ways,
 and that my relationship with God is closer than long time before. 
I know that God never left me, and I never left Him, but my life was exhausting,
 and I was powerless to seek Him more and go forward in my faith.


My faith time has been turning on "Spring"
that's the time when new things are seeded to the heart 
and many new areas are waiting for the finder...

I have started to Play more music and have being in music charge few times...

Im truly happy

I want to enjoy His presence..

Also this is the time when distractions tries to steal my focus
And I have tempation to work with my own power and not to seek God first.

What I need now is patient, peace and trust to God!
He will say when I should go forward. and where.





Prayer


God Help me to give this situation to your hands,
And have faith on you
You will carry me
and lead my way where I should go
You have strenghten me and healed my wings
So I can fly in your dreams
Show me, when I should go further in those dreams
And start fly again

Thank you God