What makes me ALIVE?

What makes me breath?

What makes me take another step?

What makes me ALIVE?

 The spirit that comes Above,

The spirit that fills my soul with Joy and peace

and wiith many millions of dreams! 

The spirit of the Lord God Almighty 

-Heidi

I have been thinking of future, and decisions....

Well now I cannot choose anything I have already applied to places and prayed a lot, maybe not enough...

Cause I feel so impatient and restless...

In this moment I have multiple ways to go, and well... later on will know if I really have to choose between those... then I will need so much... wisdom? or something to know which way to go...

But now Im not making choices so is the time of WAITING...

Thats sometimes the hardest part :P

Im lucky..

 that  in this moment Im happy in many ways,

 and that my relationship with God is closer than long time before. 

I know that God never left me, and I never left Him, but my life was exhausting,

 and I was powerless to seek Him more and go forward in my faith.

My faith time has been turning on "Spring"

that's the time when new things are seeded to the heart 

and many new areas are waiting for the finder...

I have started to Play more music and have being in music charge few times...

Im truly happy

I want to enjoy His presence..

Also this is the time when distractions tries to steal my focus
And I have tempation to work with my own power and not to seek God first.

What I need now is patient, peace and trust to God!
He will say when I should go forward. and where.

Prayer

God Help me to give this situation to your hands,
And have faith on you
You will carry me

and lead my way where I should go

You have strenghten me and healed my wings
So I can fly in your dreams
Show me, when I should go further in those dreams

And start fly again

Thank you God