One day

I have been thinking of what is important in my life, and what I could give away for someone.

I mean, If someday I will have boyfriend/ husband, I know, there is two persons, who have  their own dreams, and both have been thinking of future separately before they met each others...

What Im willing to give away, and what is something I could not?
And what is my ultimate one dream?

Is it that I have family, and that I will have a husband  who I can love, and who loves me back,
And that we will together serve God...
Or is my ultimate one dream to do the things what I have dreamed of? (for example missionfield, outreach, serving God in abroad, in Russia, being missionary?)
And can those be combined together? or not? and should it be combined?

I pray that when ever I will get married, Im willing to then put my husband d family to the first place (after God of course)
because when Im married, my first priority ministry place is my family !

I also pray, that I wouldnt be thinking of that I will miss something in my life, if I have to leave some dreams behind... Because Gods plan is always the best, and he never stops to give blessings to my life.

And I wanto understand that where ever  I am, there I can serve God.
Not try to seek something huge and "fancy" because THEN God could use me...
understand that the place Im right now. work, hobbies, church, relationships... THERE I can do Gods will!

"okay then when I'm missionary in some darkest African forest, then I'm in Gods plan"

NO! Im in Gods plan RIGHT NOW !

And who will be beside me?
I dont know...

I just know that my desire is to have husband, who will put God to first place,
And is willing to give away dreams, like I am willing... and then seek TOGETHER
what is Gods plan for us...
And that I could be a wife, who can support husband, and honour him.
And that I could be loved by him.


Im Glad thou, i dont have to put my happines to that dream, or desire.
I wanna have my happines and  REASON to live IN GOD
And then.... when time and person is right....
I can share this  life with a person,
who is ment for me.

One day I'm yours, and you are mine <3