For long time i have peace inside.

I have been so stressed about my future and my next steps, so either i haven't be able to do much anything, or  i have been doing everything at once like Duracell bunny...

And have slept . A LOT!

I still sleep quite long, but im not so stressed, and anxious about  humm.. everything...
and I have been able to enjoy the moments.

I found some feeling inside me, that cause me to be so stressful with all the stuff.
(I escaped my true feelings without understanding it )

But i faced the situation, and what i had inside me, and told God, situation is now this,
and I cannot do anything about it, so you help me, thanks.

Of course not demanding like God is the employee... but still quite bossy way, cause i know
i cannot handle this situation on my own.
Also i truly wanna live better way, and not spend all my time by PLAYING FARMVILLE .......
and other things (well atm. in other tab, im feeding my hens and pigs, and harvesting crops :D )

at least i know internet is not the only life i have.

Anyways.... after i understood that .... thing inside me, and leaving it to God, i have been more relaxed,
and also I have been able to wait in peace what will happen next (i have applied to multiple schools and waiting for answers...)

I have also said to God that i really really wanna leave this city... cause i need change.
From many things in my life. But still I wanna leave this to Gods hand. if doors won't open to another city,
then i will not go anywhere. even i dislike that idea, but if for somereason there is no way i cannot leave, then i demand God to give me strength to LIKE the idea of staying here :D

Cause in the very end, where God is , i can be happy, even Im sad.
where God is, i can find peace, and meaning for my life.

And the greatest thing is that where I AM... God is there always with me.
So i have no worries <3