oh its May !

Now I have flight ticket to Zurich...
So in September I can go and see my dts leader...
And celebrate her weddings <3
. I saw her soooo long time ago... wow...
Im so glad for this opportunity :)

Yesterday we had Vappu - gathering.
Some of us made different kinda food/desserts ...
And we had something like 11 people to celebrate the day together.

I enjoy a lot when there is people around and we can have time together,
play games, and eat, and just have fun, and talk to each others.
I also like to invite people who dont know each others, and introduce them..
and then they have more friends ! yay!

after that party i came home and during the night i felt sick , and i think i had fever, cause i was so cold...
Morning i wasnt feeling so well so i skipped my work from today and stayed home and just slept...
I hope tomorrow i will be better cause we have international evening in church and im singing and charing testimony there, and saturday is my granpas funerals.

Today i was feeling blue...
just thought sad things and something that... im afraid of...
Im afraid of losing people around me :(
I hope I wont get disappointed...
it is just hard, cause if you want to trust, and get known people closer,
there is always risk, that those are not staying in your life :p

But Im glad I can always trust on God...
thats the only hope i have, when im having this fear, that i cannot trust on people. . .

I just dont wanna get hurt.

God, be with me ,and help me to get rid of this fear <3
I trust on you, and i put my heart in to your hands, take good care of it <3 thanks ))